I smiled. Yes I did.

Within hours, parents quarrel and things occurred.
I was away at Jinghui's place, then mom texted me to go home to look after sisters.
She was super down, crying & screaming when she called me.
I know, something gotta do with dad again.
It's always that bloody bastard. I swear & curse I DON'T WANT A DAD LIKE YOU!
Mommy drank 1 1/2 bottle of pure Martel, vomiting, tearing, swearing..
I know from this moment on I gotta stay strong & stay with my mom.
I know I gotta work hard & give her a good life in the near future.
I won't let her suffer like how she is now. I'm gonna give her easy life.
That bloody shit, who keep denying that it's not his fault.
Not his fault for making mummy become like this, not his fault for selling house..
Ah FUCK YOU!
Saying that mom shouldn't get too vexed over the house thing.
PLEASE LA BLOODY FUCKER. NO PLACE TO STAY YOU CAN RELAX?
COS YOU DON'T BLOODY HELL CARE ABOUT ANYTHING!
YOU ONLY KNOW HOW TO USE THAT BLOODY MOUTH OF YOURS TO HURT MUMMY!
MOM IS ALWAYS THE ONE WHO IS THAT IS CLEARING UP YOUR MESS.
ALL THE BLOODY WORDS THAT COME OUT FROM YOUR BLOODY MOUTH WON'T GET ERASED FROM MY MIND SO EASILY.
" Not happy, divorce la." "just shift out la." "drink and get drunk for what fuck?"
I'LL ALWAYS REMEMBER THAT I HAVE A DAD LIKE YOU.
If this is the way you wanna treat us, then I won't spare you any face in the future either.

Actually... the main point of this post is not that I wanna rant about my dad.
Cos I know no matter how much I say, others will still think that I'm unfilial.
I understand, y'all are not in my shoe. So I don't mind you people gossip about me behind my back.
Only people that are close to me will understand what kind of person he is.
So ok, my main point is here.

I wanna thank god for giving me so much wonderful friends.
Letting them go through all my ups & downs with me.
Giving me support & unlimited amount of concern when I need it.
Cheering me up, listening to my rantings and complains without fail.
Always available for me when I give them a call, like Enrico :)
I was feeling ultra unhappy just now. He called me, ask me to stop crying.
Then texted me asking me whether I wanna come out anot cos he know I wouldn't wanna stay at home.
So when the things at home is stabilise, I called him & he came down immediately without any delay.
Friends, really make a big difference in my life.
Of course, not neglecting Jinghui & Sylvia.
Always giving me lots of nagging & advices that wakes me up.
Throw away the silly thought of killing myself and all those rubbish.
Joking and imagining stupid stuff that can make us laugh for as long as forever.
Luv you girls :)
Not forgetting Wong, Angel, Bjorn, Jac, Renee and some others.
Asking me to cheer up, random text that ask me to stay strong, asking me how is everything going..
All this little concern can really let me forget all those unhappy things that happens :)
For whatever it is, Mommy, sis, aunts, uncles, grandparents, friends,
are the most important thing in my life.
Thousands of hugs and kisses to them, & the people reading this :)
Xoxo love.


i WILL get over with this obstacle, & stay strong by my mom's side.

The chocolate is not nice de lor =.=
My phone quality drop from 5.0 to 0.5!!
So suckish. Blame myself for getting drunk that day & spoilt my damn phone. Pffffffts.





Happy newly wed ^^
I feel like getting married too. Haa :D

Saturday, December 12, 2009 3:41 PM

I wish that you were dead.

I swear and curse that I really want you dead now.

Make a big fuss early in the morning. Shouting & banging the door like some asshole.

You wanna get your sleep we don't want is it?

Please la. You sold this bloody house to clear your debts, scold all of us when you're not in good mood.

You're my dad so what? You seriously not suits to be one.

Telling me that you've clear ties with gang, cos of family.

Cockster. Telling me about family here, then why are you still gambling?
Why why why ?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?
Why the fuck are you doing all these to mummy & us???
Pushing all the blames to everyone when you're the one at fault.

Always being so unreasonable, always thinks that you're the correct one.
At the age of 37 yet you still don't know what is right and wrong.

Fuck you la seriously. I really wish that you can disappear from my sight.

You have crossed far too over my limit alr, I hope that you won't let me go crazy.

Or else I'll just kill you with a knife stab into your heart.
Call yourself our Dad? MY FOOT.



Keep your comments to yourself. I know I'm being unfilial but,

HE'S A DAD THAT NOBODY WANTS.

CHERYL.
5teen, Eleven september.

Hate the you that I luv..
Msn.